Okay, confession time. I'm terrified to have another baby. It's not the reason you might think either. I'm not afraid of labor. I didn't think that was to bad. I don't want Levi to be an only child. I'm not afraid of how he'll adjust.
No, what's really got me scared is that I already have the perfect child. Levi is so laid back and easy going. He weened himself and is now potty training himself. He was a happy baby. He's got the best laugh I've ever heard. Sure we have our bad days but overall he has always been such a good boy. I'm scared that our next baby will not be as good and I won't be able to handle it. What if it's a girl? I don't know anything about taking care of girls. I'm not girlly either, I won't be able to teacher her how to do her hair of put on makeup. Then, What if it's a boy? I feel like I'll always be comparing him to Levi.
As we get closer to the time when I said we would start trying again I'm starting to freak out. You know me, I'm a worrier and this is weighing on my mind. Any advice from seasoned parents would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks for reading.
3 comments:
I'm not seasoned but I know where you are coming from. I [secretly] confess that I'm absolutely terrified to parent a boy. Hey, if our next kids are the 'wrong' sex you just wanna trade? Except I'm not ready quite yet :)
I'm not seasoned either. Our kids are about the same age. Gail and I have never planed when we would have out second child. I've thought about it and I too get worried. Lydia has been the perfect child. She's funny, smart, creative, and is always happy. I loving getting to see things through her eyes for the first time. Like grass!! A few weeks ago it was really nice out and we went out to play. I took her shoes and socks off she she could walk in the grass. She freaked out at first, but then loved it. I'm afraid if we have another one I'll miss out or not be able to enjoy those moments with her. I am afraid of how she will adjust. She hates it when I play with other kids or babies. Day care also worries me. I have a wonderful sitter and I don't pay near what the Kirksville rates are, but there is no way that we could afford another child in day care. STRESS!! I guess my plan is when God wants it to happen it will happen. Money or no money, Lydia being ready of not ready, and we can all enjoy those moments together.
I don't know what to tell you about your concerns because they are good concerns and the luck of you having another child like Levi are probably not highly likely. Carter, our first, was more like Levi. Ava on the other hand was not. And you know what? You just deal with it and go on and love them all the same. I don't really remember comparing them too much either. I just realized they are two separate kids and love them for how they are different. They each bring something special to our family. Hope that helps. I was nervous about having a girl too. But I wouldn't change it for anything even with all the drama and fits she can have.
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